Issue 4 |Female Rage (Late Issue)

 

The Metamorphosis Of Sorrow:

The Girl Confined

For the girls who forgive but still hold

the fear of it happening again  

                                                                                             

Mid November looms, the holidays drawing near. I watch all the fathers bring gifts for their kids while mine only brings me to tears, an inheritance I cannot escape. Of Course only inevitably, but nonetheless an event worth celebrating which i am doing by writing this piece. I pray no child is condemned to remember their father only by the haunting echo of his footsteps, as I have been. Nothing unfolded as little me had wished. Every shadowed corner of this house bears my mother’s cries & pleas and the ghosts I cannot escape, admittedly not yet as I'm burdened by my own incapability. I’ll forever be scarred in ways one cannot imagine. Not only by my father but also by my lover whose eyes mirror my mother’s, for each time he scars my heart, they flood with tears… a cruel symmetry of pain & regret. Yet with every tear he shed, my eyes remained dry as though my grief had grown weary of me and fled, leaving only a silence that even sorrow refused to fill. Oh mother how I wonder if you also enjoyed forgiveness only for the sake of it,  just as I do.

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November 18, 2024 ❤